So... since I've been terrible at this. I will no longer beat myself up for not posting. It's been a LONG few months. I've been terribly exhausted and not feeling well. Cam and I are trying to make some pretty significant decisions... and I'm about at the end of my rope emotionally and physically.
So therefore... I have not been blogging. I feel like these should be about happy things. Telling about the good and exciting things going on... not the overly overwhelming and not happy things.
I've been in counselling... YAY! And it's actually amazing. I love the woman that I've been seeing. She has helped me be challenged and realize some of the things that I need to do in order to move forward in life... like write my life story. I'm at age three... and I've been stuck there for weeks. I just get scared that I'm starting this horribly uphill journey and don't know where I'll end up at the end of it. I know I'll be better for it though. It's also scary to think about reliving each and every horrible moment that has happened in my life... and, boy, are some of those moments not good. I'll admit... I'm scared. And weak. But I know that God wants this for me... to finally be rid of the past, and more than able to move on into the future that He has planned for Cam & I. What an awesome God we serve.
So there's my short and sweet update on where I'm at. I'm sick, and tired. And overwhelmed with life. But I have a God who loves me and wants only the best for me. And I also have a husband whose patience never seems to fail, and who amazes me with his incredible ability to love me.
If you think of us... pray for us :) It's a long journey that we're on right now.
Blessings, and hopeful wishes... E.
